for me, the worst part
about you being a shitty friend
is the perfect sense it makes
i understand you have a boyfriend now
cool, what’s that like, totally unique right
you’re in love, isn’t it great
it’s just you and him
isn’t being apart just the most painful thing
can i tell you something though
wait until you start intentionally hurting each other
wait until that happens, when one of you sleeps
with someone else just to prove a point
wait until the reason for this thing you’re building together
becomes clear, wait until you realize
its purpose is to have something to ruin
and when i was laughing at the schizophrenic guy
who earlier was trying to persuade himself
to stop talking to us, i was laughing with sympathy
for the part of him that’s earnest and reasonable
and understands the social cues that his other half
can’t seem to obey out of reckless neediness
i was laughing because who can’t relate to that
can you relate to that, can you give me that at least
can you give me a sign that you’re still my friend
can you be vulnerable for just a sec
i know we’re different people but that’s the point
you’re asleep in a room with the first boyfriend you’ve loved
yet to notice the song’s been on repeat
and i’m thinking about trying not to think
a circle as pointless as trying sometimes
to tell the recklessly needy person inside you
to just stop talking, but can I ask something
of you and your boyfriend, can you guys
start hurting each other
